Recent content by Rebaynia

I see them hiding around corners, tucked behind bushes, signs, fences as I drive by. Their there.

I can only express what it is to me. People expierience it differently, and apparently there are different ways to reach different forms of subspace. Most important for me is feeling safe and trusting the situation, or I won't be able to be submissive.

Exactly. My collar is a prize not a shame. For us it is our version of a wedding ring. I have the voices of my past dating world that constantly degrade me for being an escort for 6 months of my life, of all things. Master builds me up, to try and hush all the voices of what a 'proper' or...

It's a power play thing, not a sexual position or move.

Even innocent questions, can lead to explosive answers, if asked to someone who has an explosive answer. And I am always struggling with the desire to go back and hit delete. But sometimes I know reguardless of the outcome, I need to be heard, preferably understood. And without context you...

My random thought... How much I hate having and AuDHD brain with timeblindness, that means at any given time at any given day, because of some trigger I don't know of, I can be flipped back to a moment of the past as if I am in it presently. Only for a moment, not enough to make it...

Us as SPs. Being over 25 wanting to be with 18 19, 20. As an SP, its not about wanting to, for us it's more about willing to. I want, to meet adult men, who appreciate me, desire me, and pay to spend time with me, activities happen. I'm not wanting any set age, except good expieriences that...

The partner was there before the child. You look at your child like a product of your love, not as a twisted version of your partner. The likeness grows gradually over time, they don't look like spitting images of their parents from the moment they are born. You don't block out the...

DV only gets worse over time, not better. It was an easy decision to cut ties with my ex's, when realizing kids will find for themselves in their future, the type of relationship they were presented growing up. If your partner is doing things to you without even considering the baby... is this...

The whole social aspect. I wasn't one to really follow any social media regularly before, or for the first year. Before becoming available as a SP I didn't socialize at all with other people outside of my home and work. *Sorry realizing part of my social exhaustion might be that when I...

Thank you. :p I've been enjoying the look, and each step as it fades. It was much more accepted in all aspects of my life than I was expecting. Something I may need to keep up on. It was the civi side that I used to have to keep it natural hair colors for. My boss acted like nothing was...

You are assuming. Often the younger ones are already expierienced with those their age, just not with an older woman, the v-cards have often been men between 21-35. Rent? Stole it from parents room. Even had a beta machine in my room at 9 yro with 3 movies to play, 1 of them being Porky's...

That might work with an agency. But there's no way I would be going to see someone without having properly been assured we are compatible, which means communication before meeting up, and assuring there is no misunderstandings. I don't want to show up to find out they weren't properly prepared...

It's external skin healing. I would just use polysporin to help the healing process. Even if it isn't necessary. Even that is likely overkill at this point, but if it is taking a while to resolve. The ointment would at least be beneficial.

It doesn't need to be down to the skin to be more comfortable. Just trimming it so it is short enough not to become dental floss while I'm there is something appreciated. At least for me. A haircut instead of shave is enough to show there was care put in. Though it isn't really something I...