I understand that this post does not go well with our community, but every year I write, somewhere, these little phrases that seem to help me cope with the pain that still lingers within me.
A very Sad day for me today!
On this day in 2004, an accident occured on a highway near Ottawa. Two cars driven by teenagers, thinking they were on a local and private race track, were speeding in excess of 200km hour. Not wanting to lower their speed, they zigzaged in amonsgt the cars that were headed to the capital. During one of theses slaloms manouvers, one of the cars hit the back of a small compact car sending it into a tunnel roll which was only stopped by trees lining the side of the road. Aboard the vehicule, two innocent people heading towards Ottawa to surprise a father and husband, who hadn't seen his family four nearly a month.
One of the passengers a four year old girl died instantly as the car was slammed into the trees, the mother and wife, died in her husbands arms at the hospital, her last words to him were 'I am leaving you not because I want to, but because I have to, please don't remain alone waiting to join us, live a happy life',
I have yet to honor her last wish, and I still linger in the past. I have promised them both, on more then one occaision that I would do as I have been asked. This year the pain feels different somehow, it feels more managerable, it feels less like the knife that it has in the past, maybe finally this year I will be able to meet this promise, and maybe start a new family!
Thanks for the ear, like I had mentioned, it just helps to let it out!