Thank you all for the words of encouragement, they are helpful and appreciated!!
I know that this is a turning point in my life; I know the memories of them will never leave my heart; I am also tired of being alone. I am tired of living in small rooms (hotels and CFB), I am tired of going to bed alone and waking up wishing someone was still asleep beside me. I have worked none stop for the last 5 years, trying to bring ease to this world of its pain and suffering, and in doing so I have neglected mine, I have been asleep from life and the pleasures that it had once given me; I believe it is time that I returned to living. After this tour in the middle-east I will be returning to Montreal to a small house that has not seen a living soul within its walls in over 5 years, I still marvel at her simplicity, she could have chosen an extravagant life that I was able to provide, and yet she had chosen a small house that she said looked perfect to raise children. I think entering this house will be a test of my readiness!
I have jumped from bed to bed with women all over the world, and still there is an emptiness that is eating away at me, an emptiness that I believe will only be filled with a love one by my side. I guess this will also serve as a goodbye to the hobby, for at the moment that she is found this life will become but a memory.
Thank you again for the sincere words that have been left in this thread. And some have had a very positive impact on me. The song being one of them, I have listened to it quite often this week, and though it makes me cry every time I do feel better after.
Thank you everyone.
I know that this is a turning point in my life; I know the memories of them will never leave my heart; I am also tired of being alone. I am tired of living in small rooms (hotels and CFB), I am tired of going to bed alone and waking up wishing someone was still asleep beside me. I have worked none stop for the last 5 years, trying to bring ease to this world of its pain and suffering, and in doing so I have neglected mine, I have been asleep from life and the pleasures that it had once given me; I believe it is time that I returned to living. After this tour in the middle-east I will be returning to Montreal to a small house that has not seen a living soul within its walls in over 5 years, I still marvel at her simplicity, she could have chosen an extravagant life that I was able to provide, and yet she had chosen a small house that she said looked perfect to raise children. I think entering this house will be a test of my readiness!
I have jumped from bed to bed with women all over the world, and still there is an emptiness that is eating away at me, an emptiness that I believe will only be filled with a love one by my side. I guess this will also serve as a goodbye to the hobby, for at the moment that she is found this life will become but a memory.
Thank you again for the sincere words that have been left in this thread. And some have had a very positive impact on me. The song being one of them, I have listened to it quite often this week, and though it makes me cry every time I do feel better after.
Thank you everyone.