A very Sad day for me today!

[Kronos]

Thank you all for the words of encouragement, they are helpful and appreciated!!

I know that this is a turning point in my life; I know the memories of them will never leave my heart; I am also tired of being alone. I am tired of living in small rooms (hotels and CFB), I am tired of going to bed alone and waking up wishing someone was still asleep beside me. I have worked none stop for the last 5 years, trying to bring ease to this world of its pain and suffering, and in doing so I have neglected mine, I have been asleep from life and the pleasures that it had once given me; I believe it is time that I returned to living. After this tour in the middle-east I will be returning to Montreal to a small house that has not seen a living soul within its walls in over 5 years, I still marvel at her simplicity, she could have chosen an extravagant life that I was able to provide, and yet she had chosen a small house that she said looked perfect to raise children. I think entering this house will be a test of my readiness!

I have jumped from bed to bed with women all over the world, and still there is an emptiness that is eating away at me, an emptiness that I believe will only be filled with a love one by my side. I guess this will also serve as a goodbye to the hobby, for at the moment that she is found this life will become but a memory.


Thank you again for the sincere words that have been left in this thread. And some have had a very positive impact on me. The song being one of them, I have listened to it quite often this week, and though it makes me cry every time I do feel better after.

Thank you everyone.

 

[Big Daddy]

Happy life

Kronos:

Your wife asked you to live a happy life. There are more ways to live a happy life than starting a family. I think you need to find a purpose in life, if it is starting a family then great, otherwise find something good and leave a legacy/mark on the world. Hopefully this will help you keep your promise.

 

[ocean]

Hi Kronos,

bro may I make a suggestion, try to join a support group like madd. While you are a father, not a mother and your story revolves around street racing, I think that they would be happy to have you there, as you can talk to similar people in your situation.

That being said, I think that you should speak to someone about your hobbying (doesn't have to be a psychologist , maybe a friend). Because hobbying is no substitute for a
normal growing relationship (which you may or may not be ready for) . Also after the hooker collects her bills and leaves will that make you feel better or worse?

AS for punks, you don't know how many times when I see punks in a souped up honda civic or there mom's mercedes driving without politesse on the road I feel like slapping them. I think that its good that eh government is making classes mandatory again.

 

[Enjoy-Life]

A piece of good in this awful world!

I have only two comments to add:

1) so sorry about the difficulty you experienced, but i hope you can find your place going forward, you deserve it!

2) the many comments/advice were very kind

All the best!