To be completely honest, during my past struggles with substance abuse and excessive partying, I found myself engaging with a staggering number of 12 service providers in a single day. However, the consequences of this reckless behavior became painfully apparent after awakening from such a wild binge. Not only was I filled with regret and frustration, but I also discovered a significant loss of $4,000 from my pocket. It was a stark reminder of the havoc wreaked by my insatiable and self-destructive addictions, as I was constantly driven to push the boundaries and seek out extreme experiences.
Thankfully, I can now gratefully say that I have overcome this chaotic rollercoaster of partying and recklessness. Having been sober for five years, I have learned to exercise moderation and control in my interactions with service providers. These days, I allow myself the occasional indulgence, typically scheduling encounters once every two weeks. However, there are moments when my desires align and I find myself in a more adventurous mood, leading me to engage with three to four service providers in a given timeframe.
Yet, these days, I find myself more drawn to genuine connections and spontaneous encounters. It all depends on my mood and the level of connection I feel with someone. Through my journey to sobriety, I have come to appreciate the value of meaningful interactions and the joy that can be found in embracing the present moment.
