I feel this way sometimes. Like 50/50. Im lucky i grew up in a good familly for the most part and i got good values but the tougher times also helped me strengh my shell against bad stuff. I had a dark period that i didn't deserved. The system screwed me and even today im still mad 25 years later. My mom too. We didn't deserved that either of us. F the DPJ !! They F up big time.I know I couldn't have gotten here without a lot of luck and care...
But in this bad time i could harvest the positive tough and in a weird way it somewhat gave me a tougher side that i may could not have today if it makes any sense. It kinda "balance" a bit my good nature.