My first ejaculation was the most monumental experience of my life. I was 14-years-old. I was jumping for joy with a smile on my face. I wanted to wake up my parents at midnight, call my friends, and hug everyone in the streets. It solved all of my problems: depression, suicidal thoughts, and raging anger. My life now had meaning. For the first time in my life, I had control over feeling happy. I had reached the next level up.
Until the age of 24--when seeing escorts began--I masturbated 5-8 times a day. I whacked it in the morning before breakfast, twice at work in the bathroom, once when I came home, and then three more times before going to bed. There were no off days, weekends or holidays. I was committed to my craft 365 days a year. It took a few years before I reached Super Sayan level 2, where I can jack-off, not lose my hard, and then cum again. That was a milestone. I did call up my friends for that day’s jubilation.
Until two years into my mixed-martial arts (MMA) training, at Montreal’s very own TriStar, at the age of 26, it had never occurred to me what the fuck I was doing. Prior, sex-education and bro-science taught me that jacking-off a lot will increase my testosterone because I am depleting myself of it, so my body has to produce more. Four years of training with world-class MMA fighters taught me to keep it in. I adjusted my masturbating business hours to weekends only. Not every fighter follows this protocol. Some curb their releases only before an upcoming fight. The difference was subtle, but my ability to pull the trigger during hard sparring changed exponentially. I learned to tap into my killer instinct.
For most of my escorting sessions, I jacked-off a minimum 3-4 times before going. That would buy me 12-20 minutes of fucking. If I was gonna see a girlfriend for the night, my protocol for 3-5 days leading up to it: no-fap, red meat only, and 3 eggs per day with a handful of nuts. This buys me 10 ejaculations in 16 hours. After the 4th ejaculation, my fucking time is fully under my control, and I bust ‘cause I want to.
Past 2019, I will rarely watch porn. Since the beginning, I always found it to be a disgusting act. I felt like a loser. Many times I would feel down, but didn’t know it was excessive masturbating that was part of the problem. The fleeting high kept me coming back. However, I didn’t want to be a 33 year old man, masturbating alone in the toilet. The thought of it was horrifying. Taking pleasure in watching other people having pleasure made me feel like a cuck. A bystander. A non-player character. There is a time and place for everything. With my experiences and transitions throughout the years, I slowly began to learn how to bring it under control. I will never stop. I will just do it when I want to. It’s about absolute control and domination over my most carnal of desires.
Please share your masturbating journey:
1) What age did you start?
2) How many times do you do it per day/week?
3) Protocol for seeing escorts?
Until the age of 24--when seeing escorts began--I masturbated 5-8 times a day. I whacked it in the morning before breakfast, twice at work in the bathroom, once when I came home, and then three more times before going to bed. There were no off days, weekends or holidays. I was committed to my craft 365 days a year. It took a few years before I reached Super Sayan level 2, where I can jack-off, not lose my hard, and then cum again. That was a milestone. I did call up my friends for that day’s jubilation.
Until two years into my mixed-martial arts (MMA) training, at Montreal’s very own TriStar, at the age of 26, it had never occurred to me what the fuck I was doing. Prior, sex-education and bro-science taught me that jacking-off a lot will increase my testosterone because I am depleting myself of it, so my body has to produce more. Four years of training with world-class MMA fighters taught me to keep it in. I adjusted my masturbating business hours to weekends only. Not every fighter follows this protocol. Some curb their releases only before an upcoming fight. The difference was subtle, but my ability to pull the trigger during hard sparring changed exponentially. I learned to tap into my killer instinct.
For most of my escorting sessions, I jacked-off a minimum 3-4 times before going. That would buy me 12-20 minutes of fucking. If I was gonna see a girlfriend for the night, my protocol for 3-5 days leading up to it: no-fap, red meat only, and 3 eggs per day with a handful of nuts. This buys me 10 ejaculations in 16 hours. After the 4th ejaculation, my fucking time is fully under my control, and I bust ‘cause I want to.
Past 2019, I will rarely watch porn. Since the beginning, I always found it to be a disgusting act. I felt like a loser. Many times I would feel down, but didn’t know it was excessive masturbating that was part of the problem. The fleeting high kept me coming back. However, I didn’t want to be a 33 year old man, masturbating alone in the toilet. The thought of it was horrifying. Taking pleasure in watching other people having pleasure made me feel like a cuck. A bystander. A non-player character. There is a time and place for everything. With my experiences and transitions throughout the years, I slowly began to learn how to bring it under control. I will never stop. I will just do it when I want to. It’s about absolute control and domination over my most carnal of desires.
Please share your masturbating journey:
1) What age did you start?
2) How many times do you do it per day/week?
3) Protocol for seeing escorts?
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