sorry for my reply in english, but my french writing is too pathetic
congratulations on your recovery!
its very reassuring to know there is such thing as a light at the end of the tunnel. I say this because I myself have tried SEVERAL times to quit. It was such a detriment to my life, that I was resentful towards modern society but obviously I learned i can only control what i can control, which is myself.
This hobby made me believe that I belonged in the category of "unwanted guys" or "ugly guys" - as my expectations were so distorted that I thought normal girls would just be disgusted by me. In reality, i learned that I was just a normal guy, I just wasn't your typical "high value" man which I accept. It had gotten to the point that I thought I should just stop trying and continue to book SPs to survive.
Fixing my self-esteem helped me to believe that I can achieve a normal relationship. This benefit led me to improving myself in many ways. I am not a high value man per se, but I am a decent guy.
I believe my last chapter is to apply my value to real women and try to find "love" - i do long for a real relationship rather than my next booking.
not sure what is my catalyst that will bring me to this next chapter... hopefully time will tell.
congratulations on your recovery!
its very reassuring to know there is such thing as a light at the end of the tunnel. I say this because I myself have tried SEVERAL times to quit. It was such a detriment to my life, that I was resentful towards modern society but obviously I learned i can only control what i can control, which is myself.
This hobby made me believe that I belonged in the category of "unwanted guys" or "ugly guys" - as my expectations were so distorted that I thought normal girls would just be disgusted by me. In reality, i learned that I was just a normal guy, I just wasn't your typical "high value" man which I accept. It had gotten to the point that I thought I should just stop trying and continue to book SPs to survive.
Fixing my self-esteem helped me to believe that I can achieve a normal relationship. This benefit led me to improving myself in many ways. I am not a high value man per se, but I am a decent guy.
I believe my last chapter is to apply my value to real women and try to find "love" - i do long for a real relationship rather than my next booking.
not sure what is my catalyst that will bring me to this next chapter... hopefully time will tell.
