heh don`t feel bad, it happened to me too, I was really really embarrassed and felt bad too. Hell, I didna even feel like a man anymore. I didn`t even get off , trust me that was a painful sensation, blue balls pain is real and very painful. Even on the 2nd time I saw an SP I couldn`t get off. On both occassions had and nope I couldn`t. Couldn`t do FS either, as I kept losing my errection.
It was only at the 3rd time I finally got off twice and OMG was that incredible. I still have to get off via FS.
So, don`t feel bad and get over it. It takes time to get comfortable about this.
I feel weirded out with sharing this but wtf i don`t give a damn. Honestly, When I was with ma first love, I didna get off either on ma first time with her. Mind ya on the 2nd time it felt natural and I was able to relax and everything went well after that (which was the next day).
I could give ma excuses, I was nervous, I was drinking to try and calm down, it was 10 years since I had sex or I was popping sleeping pills like candy (to calm ma mind, just so I could sleep at nights) and I was out of shape.
But with all that said, I feel ya pain and don`t worry about it. It`s not a big deal and ya will just have to keep trying till it feels natural.