The long, arduous road to sobriety...

[General Gonad]

My fellow Merbites. I have not been with an SP or MP in almost two weeks. I have many opportunities but I have resisted the urge. Why? Because I am a "binge hobbyist" - once I start, I am hooked for more. I wish I could control myself but I simply can't.

A wise man told me today: "...you got ask yourself why you're doing this...only you know." Part of it is that I love and need sex, part of it is that I am lonely, part of it is that my life is tough, part of it is that I love the hunt.

All I know is that my actions count..now more than ever...

GG

 

[EagerBeaver]

Is coming back on the Board likely to keep you "sober"?

 

[Esco!]

I have not been with an SP or MP in almost two weeks.

2 Weeks???!!!!

I think I'd burst, myself!!!!

 

[CaptRenault]

...I am a "binge hobbyist" ...I wish I could control myself but I simply can`t.

Gonad, must you start yet another thread on the same old topic?

I suggest the mods combine all of Gonad`s "addiction" threads into one. Here are just a few:

Gonad addiction thread

Gonad addiction thread

Gonad addiction thread

 

[joelcairo]

My fellow Merbites. I have not been with an SP or MP in almost two weeks. I have many opportunities but I have resisted the urge. Why? Because I am a "binge hobbyist" - once I start, I am hooked for more. I wish I could control myself but I simply can't.

A wise man told me today: "...you got ask yourself why you're doing this...only you know." Part of it is that I love and need sex, part of it is that I am lonely, part of it is that my life is tough, part of it is that I love the hunt.

All I know is that my actions count..now more than ever...

GG

It isn't much of a hunt if you buy the trophy.

 

[General Gonad]

It isn't much of a hunt if you buy the trophy.

Good point...but the hunt is more about being with someone new...unchartered territory...whatever...it's a vicious cycle...there's always another new lady to explore.

GG

P.S. Oh well, back to Oprah's Oscar special and then spanking the monkey!

 

[metoo4]

So GG, your harms are getting bigger? That juice gotta get out somehow? LOL!!

I think I might be slowly slipping in the same pattern... You help me keep focused and stay in control. Keep it up!

 

[General Gonad]

I think I might be slowly slipping in the same pattern... You help me keep focused and stay in control. Keep it up!

metoo4,

It's tough...real tough. I can afford to hobby but I can't afford to lose my mind. In the end, I have nothing to prove to anyone but myself. In my weak moments, I'm ready to take out my cell phone and make the call to the agency, much like the drug addict calls the pusher for his fix. I tell myself "go ahead, call, indulge, you only live once..blablabla...".

But then I think about hard about how I feel after the SP leaves the room. That "empty" feeling is what I try to focus on. It's worked so far but there are no guarantees - I can easily slip up.

GG

P.S. One thing I have noticed is my bank account is looking good!

 

[metoo4]

P.S. One thing I have noticed is my bank account is looking good!

That's what's starting to get me worried, mine doesn't look as good as it did 1 year ago... Then I think: shit! This month SP bill could have made a monthly payment on a pretty nice car!

 

[General Gonad]

That's what's starting to get me worried, mine doesn't look as good as it did 1 year ago... Then I think: shit! This month SP bill could have made a monthly payment on a pretty nice car!

If I thought that way, I'd be driving a Porsche. But the Porsche doesn't guarantee me a GFE experience.

GG

 

[bond_james_bond]

Two weeks?!

Some of us live in Bush's Wonderland, and we can't make it to the mecca for 2 months!!! Minimum!!!

Count yourself lucky.

 

[beautydigger]

Just remember, sexual addiction may lead to stalking.

 

[Esco!]

Some of us live in Bush's Wonderland, and we can't make it to the mecca for 2 months!!! Minimum!!!
Count yourself lucky.

The good ole USA was one of the worst places for hobbying before Bush, and it'll be like
that long after he's gone

 

[Esco!]

Lets get something straight, sex is an addiction and boy am i addicted

I heard food, water and oxygen are highly addictive also.

Better stop using for a while

 

[HarmonyNYC]

Maybe General Gonad can request a self banning!

I am happy to think this is possible but I suggest it not only for my well being (and merb's well being) but I also suggest it because it may be a good idea for General Gonad.

This way he will have one less element to feed what he calls his addiction.

I am sure many others are hoping as I am, that General Gonad can request a self banning and that he gets it.

 

[EagerBeaver]

I am sure many others are hoping as I am, that General Gonad can request a self banning and that he gets it.

I have interpreted this thread as a constructive request to be banned. Apparently, the Mods have not had the same interpretation.

 

[mrten]

Even if a self ban was imposed, GG would still be able to actively pursue his path of debauchery, only not be able write (thus re-live it) about it here. I thought of offering myself as sort of a proxy for the General (his money) to try to ease the pain of cold turkey, but I don't think that it would fly as he would still be involved in the hobby to one degree or another. Another intense hobby is need (if he should so choose) Skiing, working out etc. to take his mind of the luscious, temping, succulent mouth watering big breasted,tight pussied hard bodied babes that are only only a phone call away. Sorry, I'd write more but I have a call to make , good luck

 

[EagerBeaver]

I thought of offering myself as sort of a proxy client for the General (his money)

mrten,

I may be mistaken but I don't believe GG is bisexual.

 

[mrten]

mrten,

I may be mistaken but I don't believe GG is bisexual.

I should have said stand in. My mistake, lol (error edited)

 

[General Gonad]

I may be mistaken but I don't believe GG is bisexual.

Damn right!!! I don't suck cock...just ask my bitch!

GG

P.S. I am holding on...but man was I tempted to book Brittany of XXXtase tonight!