I kind of envy you guys who see SPs because you want to. For me, it was because I had to. Had my last relationship. Same old, same old. I'm not compatible with any woman. I have nothing in common with them. It's depressing for me, but I know that the heartbreak of it ending outweighs any of the joy I got from the relationship. I lack the personality that women like. Thank god my sex drive is so low, I have no desire to even see SPs now, but I'm back to that state of mind where I know I have no other option if I want to have sex. I wouldn't wish my life on anyone. I realize I have my health, I have two legs, etc, but damn, I was the happiest I ever have been, but it was all a lie. Never again.