It will be my first time writing on this forum even If I read it quite often to check reviews or others subjects.
I've been watching escort and masseuses ads for more than 2 years but never dared to meet one. But I finally decided to give it a try yesterday night with a good reviewed agency. So I was sure the pics were good and accurate.
I was really really nervous all day long since the time I took my appointement. So at 8m, I met the girl in her room. Very nice girl, beautiful lady. I have no complaint at all about her attitude or her body.
But I had a HARD TIME touching her all the hour long. I mean I was feeling like I was forcing her to do something she might not really want and it cut down my ''desire''. I kept being shy and nervous all the meeting.
I could come once(very fast unfortunately...), but afterward, even if I had still half an hour, I never could come back in ''shape'' again. I felt like I had a damn mental blockage. A barrier that I never could get down even if the girl was nice and tried to help me get in shape ! And it's not my age.. im 28 I never had any problem about that with a gf.
I was just wondering if it happened to someone else to get a mental blockade while seeing an escort?
I felt like i had not the right to touch her because I knew in my mind that she didnt want it like my gf or a girl that you seduced in a bar or in school/work.
Is it just because it's not a hobby for me or what...? I dont regret my visit, but I regret i couldnt have the fun I expected. In fact I had no fun at all.... And I'm mad about myself for my stupid mental barrier. La réalité n'a pas été a la hauteur du fantasme que je m'étais attendu.
Sorry for my bad english and my long post but I'm really concerned about how I felt.
Thank you for reading,