I'd say it takes less than 3 dates to get sex with online dating.
I think I'm probably not unattractive cuz I have women hitting on me a few times a year? But when you were born in eastern Asia in the 80s and raised by tough Asian parents, you are just super self conscious and have low self esteem. Also culturally there is a concept of "not bothering other/not to bring troubles to other". And it bothers me a LOOOOOT when telling someone I'm not intereted. So I'm super scared of being rejected because of self consciousness and low self esteem, and I don't want others feel bothered when rejecting me. I know people don't really give a shit it's only in my head, but I just can't get over it.
Dating app helps because if a girl is not interested all at, then there wont be a match. And that unloads a huge part of the burden I mentioned. And tbh I almost always end up sleeping with the ones I like. But I think it's becoming a problem now. I'm almost swiping on them everyday conpusively because it's almost a habit at this point since I've been on them for so long, and because of the idea of "next one may be a match".
I've had 1 long term relationship and I'm not against the idea of having one. There were a few girls I really liked and was interested in having a long term relationship, but as soon as I show some affection, the girls just ran away.
Friends of friends just never worked for me. I guess my friends' friends arent really my type lol.
Thanks a lot for reading my rant. I really appreciate the support