You are absolutely correct Ms. Mocha La Mulata. The “genuine”
None of you want any strings, remind us constantly not to get attached or start acting like this is an actual date, and then bristle if it gets pointed out that it is a business transaction exactly as you advertise and want it to be.
You remind me a very good client I has every single week for 5 years...even when I quit bering indy to get back in straight sc...once, the last time I saw him..he told me at 3 am it was the last time I was seeing him. When I asked why, he said:"because this is just a twilight zone...just as a drug: i feel lonely so I come see you...when you were indy it was fine...300-400$ per week..but now I have you, and 2 regular ATF in the club and I like you all even though I can't afford 1000$ per week on dancers....BUT the main thing is I come here to feel like I am with friends....get my wallet lighter...and wake up to feel just even more lonely...I just run away from my reality but the issue remains.."
I could not talk nor react...so he giggle and said he wasn't execting that as a reaction from me...but, very calm and slowly just really have a good pick on my choices of words:"well, What can I answer to this kind of things?? Of course I am sad to know you won't come back because I liked our night together...I am sad to know how do you feel when you are alone with yourself..your loneliness...because you are truly, genuisly a nice guy who deserve nothing but being happy...But above all I am sad to know I am one of those who make you feel this way when my job is to entertain, sell dreams, etc...But it is not about me and how I do feel...becausde the last thing I want to do is to hurt you any longer than what I already did (If I knew, I would have take my distances...). So the only thing I can say is to wish you luck and to take care of yourself.."
Now I am nostalgic...but hey! I didn't forget your long posts at the beginning (lol watch me tonight being totally out of topic when I wilkl quote your first few posts!! :lol: )