What characterizes sessions that are draining and resulting in you not being able to have a booking after? Not necessarily abuse, but sessions that make you want to die or cry.
Sessions that resemble how some men here portray what they see as Sessions.
If it feels transactional, or demands with complete disregard of the give and take that goes into intimacy. If I feel a blowup doll is what they needed and not an actual human being, because they give the impression only seeing me as a pretty face and holes. It turns me off, and even if they enjoyed, if they ever reach out again, I would refuse them, and I don't pretend it's anything but what it is. I will tell them I didn't enjoy time with them and I will not be returning, and to not ever contact me back again. From expierience in my first year as a provider, it just takes about 3 visits like this for my mood to plummet so bad I become a hazard to myself. The greater danger for me isn't the clients I might see, but my own mental health if I agree to see them.
It is also why I don't accept most visits being asked of me. If this is the feel I expect before even heading over, I won't even bother to accept seeing them. Even as a first time to see if my instincts are right. I look for the red flags, and if they appear, I wont even entertain the possibility of scheduling an appointment.
What characterizes sessions that are energizing resulting in you wanting to have another client after, go to the gym or masturbate at home?
When there's a give and take in affection and connection. I am highly affectionate when the mood strikes, and enjoy people who need and are also looking for affection, not only the sexual aspect of the pleasure.
There's a reason I refer to them as my sweeties, because that's what gets me to keep returning to see them again and again.
I guess I play on a loose version of demisexual to pick who I am willing to meet in person. A connection needs to be made and felt, sight unseen before I am even willing to see them.
Why I am as poor as I am, and refuse so many.