Wow. Such insight
I know I had stated earlier that I would not be contributing to this thread anymore, as I had expressed my inner feelings, but Anik's post stirred me up a bit.
First, I want to thank most of you who have expressed understanding. And to repeat what I said earler, that by his comments. GG you appear to be a good man and I thank you.
My curiosity had me checking comments and hopefully you understand a little about my integrity. I received a message from a board member asking me who my lady (former) love was. For all to know, I respectfully declined and I would never, under any circumstances disclose who the lady is, although I am wondering if she has been as discrete.
Anik, you seem to have a very strong opinion as to how both she and I feel. I must say, that as far as I am concerned, there is no feelings here on my part. I won't use the word hate, much to strong an emotion, however I will say there is no love, passion, or good thoughts in my heart, my soul, nor my head. You see to me, the person I fell in love with was not the SP, it was her real self, and to me, that person no longer exists. That person is dead in my heart.
I never denied that I hurt her, although I think watching my son in a hospital bed after a very bad auto accident, which threw me into an emotion frenzy, a normal person might comprehend and not give up on us so quickly. She was back providing within three weeks of the accident.
I ask you Anik, I have apologized for what I put her through, I asked her to stop providing, allow me to stop seeing her reviews, and for her to stop touring. She had not and does not. There have been recent reviews, yet all the while, as recently as a couple of days ago she leaves me voice mails, emails, and a e-card professing her love to me and wants to be with me. All the while, all I have asked is to be left alone. So I ask you, what is your insight on that?
Because to me, it is one sided for not letting go, and quite frankly, neither of our wounds will ever mend, as long as she hold on to this lie. Because lets face it. You can't be both. You can not be one of Montreal's top SP's and at the same time have a loving, caring relationship. Might work for some guys, but not me.
I want to be a one woman man, but I also in return demand a one man woman.
I have respected your comments to date, until now. You must have the incredible ability to understand someones true inner feelings, without having ever met or spoken to them (I go on the record that YOU and I have never met or spoken).
Thank you all and I will sign out with this post