The first time i saw an sp was back in late fall of 1999. I was in Mtl to see the Leafs/Habs game. Having been single for two years (but i had slept around since), i discovered a web site dedicated to the sex business soon after discovering & falling in love with the internet. The site led me to escort agency websites (and indys) and my mind began to wander as i examined & got turned on by some of the pictures. Being curious by nature, and somewhat addicted to sex, temptation got the better of me & i decided to give the `hobby` a try on my next trip to Mtl.
I wasn`t sure if i`d have the nerve to go ahead with it, but it put aside a thousand bucks & headed off to Mtl. I had pre-booked all my appointments a week or so prior to leaving. I did extensive research & booked three dates. During the final week prior to my trip, i couldn`t get this out of my mind. Part of me was anxious to experience this side of the sex business, and another part of me was nervous. I was, you could say, afraid i might feel guilty later & kick myself for having gone through with it. On the night of the `date`, i called the agency to confirm the booking & waited impatiently for my `date` to show up. I had a few drinks before the scheduled appointment time in order to calm my nerves. I then received a call from the agency telling me the girl would be a half hour late. I was so nervous and sweating so much that i had to take another shower!
At the scheduled appointment time, i kept pacing around the appartment and peaking in the peep hole. My pulse was racing! It had been quite some time that i hadn`t use condoms & i wasn`t sure how (and if) i`d be able to `perform` with them. I was beginning to have second thoughts. I began to wonder if i shouldn`t call the agency and just cancel everything. Suddenly, i heard the infamous `knock` on the door, and nervously, i opened the door and greeted my guest. She didn`t look as hot as i expected her to look, but she was okay looking. To my surprise, she didn`t speak a word of french. When she took off her blouse, she wasn`t wearing a bra & i soon discovered why: she had to be the most flat-chested girl i had ever seen or imagined in my entire life!
She then removed my shirt & said ``Wow! You`re tanned & muscular!`` She kind of surprised me with the muscular part, but yeah, i worked out considerably back in those days and didn`t think it showed that much. Shortly after sitting on the sofa to drink a glass of wine together, she attacked me! It was all good, i may add. I immediately wondered why i had waited so long to do this! She asked me if i wanted to do it right there on the sofa or head over to the bedroom for the deed. I suggested we use the bedroom. I must admit that due to my nervousness, it took me a while to get hard. CBJ was what she preferred, adding she only did with regular clients. Once we began the deed, i had to take a break in the middle of FS since i began to think about the condom & to be honest, i was used to `banging` hotter girls in my private life. I began to have doubts about this. ``What was i thinking?`` I began to wonder why i was throwing away money to get laid when i could get laid for free with a hotter chick. I began thinking about all kinds of things...stds, realizing i was using a prostitute when i never imagined in my entire life i`d wind up doing this kind of stuff, etc. The next thing you know, i`m limp.......so, she changed condoms and attempted to finish me off with her mouth. I`m certain a handjob was performed. To be totally honest, i`m not even sure if i came or not. I probably didn`t.
However, i had a pretty good time with a very cool chick. She looked average, reeked pot & didn`t have much of a body, but she was a fun party-type girl. I tried to see her again two nights later, but wrestling was on that night & she never worked on wrestling nights. She loved the WWE & no bribe could take her away from her favorite tv show, RAW. So, i saw a girl i should`t have seen. I wasn`t in the proper mindset to see an sp, and the `date` went downhill from the start. The girl even left my place telling me i might not be made up to see sps. That i was more the relationship type. So, i felt bad about all of this stuff & cancelled my next appointments. I decided to leave a day or two early & figured that was it as far as the escorting business was. Boy, was i wrong!
Eleven years & couple hundreds or so sps later, i must be frank with you: If it was to start over, i`d probably not see sps. It can get way too addictive. Especially for a single guy who loved women & who`s addicted to sex like i was. After seeing a dozen or so sps within the next two years or so, it began to come way too easy for me & it was now in my blood. I became very lazy socially & didn`t put much effort into socializing with people of the opposite sex in my personal life. All i did was work, work, work in order to be able to keep on going to Mtl & getting laid as much as i wanted to. For years, the `hobby` was an obsession. I did enter a couple of quasi-serious relationships years later & i soon realized that i missed the comforts & stability of a relationship. Because of years of `hobbying`, i wasn`t sure if i could be 100% faithful in a serious relationship & that`s probably why getting too seriously involved scared me. It was actually harder for me to trust people, and at times i wasn`t even sure i could trust myself. So, my relationships all wound up turning sour after some time. When there is no trust in a relationship, there really isn`t one, right? However, those relationships got my mind off the hobby & when i returned after a brief absence, my whole outlook on the `hobby` had changed. No longer did i feel addicted to it.
I made a few trips to Mtl to see concerts or sporting events & didn`t even see any sps. I`d go on dates with either non-sps or sps....but most of the time, no hanky-panky was involved & that was fine with me. I got control of my life back.....and now when i do happen to see sps (which i must admit is becoming fewer & fewer), it`s on my terms & for the right reasons. I actually now prefer going out on a nice dinner date with a lady (sp or non-sp...doesn`t matter) and have no hanky panky than simply staying in my hotel room & call an sp (someone i may know or have never seen before) who i`ll pay to take care of my selfish needs for an hour or two. Maybe i`m getting old. Or maybe i`ve been involved in this business for too long. Who knows. Or maybe i`ve simply changed since this is usually what happens to people: they tend to change over the years. If people reading this have seen the movie `City Slickers`, they`ll likely remember the scene where Mitch asks Curly about the secret of life. If they can figure out what he meant in regards to his little finger, and understand what he meant by it, they`ll know what i`m talking about.