First of all, please don't flame me. I am just here to blow off some steam.
You know what they say, "don't mix business with pleasure".
Four months ago, I began seeing a SP. We found that we have alot in common despite the age difference (almost 20). At her own volition, she divulged her real name (first and last), her contact info (phone and email). We began seeing each other outside of "work". We really clicked. I don't think that was an act on her part.
I began to fall for her, not just on a physically level. I have not seen any other SPs for a few months now and other women don't excite me any more. It could be infatuation or the real thing. I haven't felt like this for someone in a long time.
It's much easier banging a SP and do the "wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am" routine. That's the reason I rarely see a SP more than twice. But, this case is different. She made me feel special. I don't know if she does this to all her johns, but she said I am her favorite. I believe her (or want to) otherwise she would not have divulged such personal info.
I don't know how she feels about me besides a "f**kfriend".
The more I see her, the more it hurts me (I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't concentrate at work, and the emotional pain is literally gut wrenching), but I can't stop. I want to be more than a "f**kfriend" but it seems unlikely she'll stop being a SP in the near future. It bothers me other johns are f**king her. On a rational level, I know I need to stop seeing her. It just hurts too much.
To really forget her, I tried something that I haven't in a while. I tried being with another SP last night, but I just couldn't consummate the act. I know on some level, I have to let go, but I just can't.
I am sorry for sounding pathetic but I needed to blow off some steam.
You know what they say, "don't mix business with pleasure".
Four months ago, I began seeing a SP. We found that we have alot in common despite the age difference (almost 20). At her own volition, she divulged her real name (first and last), her contact info (phone and email). We began seeing each other outside of "work". We really clicked. I don't think that was an act on her part.
I began to fall for her, not just on a physically level. I have not seen any other SPs for a few months now and other women don't excite me any more. It could be infatuation or the real thing. I haven't felt like this for someone in a long time.
It's much easier banging a SP and do the "wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am" routine. That's the reason I rarely see a SP more than twice. But, this case is different. She made me feel special. I don't know if she does this to all her johns, but she said I am her favorite. I believe her (or want to) otherwise she would not have divulged such personal info.
I don't know how she feels about me besides a "f**kfriend".
The more I see her, the more it hurts me (I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't concentrate at work, and the emotional pain is literally gut wrenching), but I can't stop. I want to be more than a "f**kfriend" but it seems unlikely she'll stop being a SP in the near future. It bothers me other johns are f**king her. On a rational level, I know I need to stop seeing her. It just hurts too much.
To really forget her, I tried something that I haven't in a while. I tried being with another SP last night, but I just couldn't consummate the act. I know on some level, I have to let go, but I just can't.
I am sorry for sounding pathetic but I needed to blow off some steam.