Loss of interest

[OHenry]

Since the dawn of time, Men who got infinite amounts of pussy, have all come to the exact same conclusion -- everything must come to pass. Men who say otherwise never got much pussy. It's the haves vs. have nots. The abundant mindset vs. poverty mentality.

Ever since I was a child, I found cigarette smoking by the Marlboro Man to be the manliest shit known to man. I started smoking 2016 with 1 cigarette a day, then come summer 2022 and I was smoking a pack a day. I loved every second of it. My childhood dream has come true. I am on par with the Marlboro Man, smoking a pack a day, and feeling manlier than ever. And then something happened. I realized I was chained to a sequence of movements that repeated itself 25 times a day. Unfortunately, no 1 habit can sustain itself. Drinking tea/coffee and going to pee joined the fuck fest. This resulted in me taking 70 breaks from my day. I was under a spell. This is true enslavement.

I did not want to be a slave. So, I decided to go cold turkey.

That was 5 months ago. Despite all the benefits of not smoking like better breathing, libido, taste, smell, sleep, digestion, bowl movement, resting heart rate, and overall impulse control, the most important thing is I don't miss it. I'm no longer dependent on it to get through my day. Yes, my life dramatically changed also. It's impossible for it not to.

My life changed not because I stopped smoked smoking, but because I got my time back. And frankly, it's hard to know what to do with so much time, which is why you wanna pick up that cigarette again. Intermittent fasting taught me to control my mouth and stomach, and Hobbying taught me to control my dick and heart. Without their help, I could have never stopped smoking.

All this to say @OHenry, why the fuck would you ever want to rekindle the magic in "hobby"?! It's like wanting your ex back or reminiscing about the Providers you banged. This lifestyle has shown me unimaginable depths of humanity and what I thought to be reality. But, time to move the fuck on. Why? Because you can do it so much better! Just as you seized the opportunity to fulfill your desires, I'm sure you can find new desires to explore that goes beyond the flesh.

There is no prescription for this. I'm not saying I'll never smoke again. In fact I most definitely will. But, at least now, for the first time in a long time, I have the luxury of pondering about my next move.

It's okay to not know. It's okay to not want.

Let the world come to you!

I guess I miss that high , the connection, the touch , of a beautiful, fit ,buxom lady in her prime. A repeat of youth maybe, I don’t know, but I’m trying to find out…

 

[nico61]

man Is a sex machine if you will, at the basis he must procreate, spread his seed as much as he can. Probaly chases younger women because they represent youth and fertility. In our DNA for sure. At the same time most will look beyond the physical act and feel the need for a more emotional connection. the mix between the two Is probaly a more fulfilling thing. What’s the old saying for “ every sexy woman there is some guy tired of fucking her” maybe loss of interest is a normal thing? Taking a break is probaly a good thing to do.

 

[OHenry]

Since the dawn of time, Men who got infinite amounts of pussy, have all come to the exact same conclusion -- everything must come to pass. Men who say otherwise never got much pussy. It's the haves vs. have nots. The abundant mindset vs. poverty mentality.

Ever since I was a child, I found cigarette smoking by the Marlboro Man to be the manliest shit known to man. I started smoking 2016 with 1 cigarette a day, then come summer 2022 and I was smoking a pack a day. I loved every second of it. My childhood dream has come true. I am on par with the Marlboro Man, smoking a pack a day, and feeling manlier than ever. And then something happened. I realized I was chained to a sequence of movements that repeated itself 25 times a day. Unfortunately, no 1 habit can sustain itself. Drinking tea/coffee and going to pee joined the fuck fest. This resulted in me taking 70 breaks from my day. I was under a spell. This is true enslavement.

I did not want to be a slave. So, I decided to go cold turkey.

That was 5 months ago. Despite all the benefits of not smoking like better breathing, libido, taste, smell, sleep, digestion, bowl movement, resting heart rate, and overall impulse control, the most important thing is I don't miss it. I'm no longer dependent on it to get through my day. Yes, my life dramatically changed also. It's impossible for it not to.

My life changed not because I stopped smoking, but because I got my time back. And frankly, it's hard to know what to do with so much time, which is why you wanna pick up that cigarette again. Intermittent fasting taught me to control my mouth and stomach, and Hobbying taught me to control my dick and heart. Without their help, I could have never stopped smoking.

All this to say @OHenry, why the fuck would you ever want to rekindle the magic in "hobby"?! It's like wanting your ex back or reminiscing about the Providers you banged. This lifestyle has shown me unimaginable depths of humanity and what I thought to be reality. But, time to move the fuck on. Why? Because you can do it so much better! Just as you seized the opportunity to fulfill your desires, I'm sure you can find new desires to explore that goes beyond the flesh.

There is no prescription for this. I'm not saying I'll never smoke again. In fact I most definitely will. But, at least now, for the first time in a long time, I have the luxury of pondering about my next move.

It's okay to not know. It's okay to not want.

Let the world come to you!

A lot of sage advice to ponder…

 

[envelopes]

I am still taking a break from the hobby due to some SP drama last month, but a booker messaged me about a retired SP (old favorite) who was coming back for a day.

Coincidentally, I was in Burlington for work, so it was an easy drive. didn't want to miss the chance to see her. Drove up 1.5 hours

Got to the incall and right then I get a text from the booker that he mixed up her schedule and she was actually leaving.

I told him I just drove almost 2 fucking hours. I was pretty angry.

Should have just stayed on my hobby break

At least I got some poutine

I drove back home after missing her "back one day only", she ended up working the next 2 days. Talk about frustrating.

Like the original commenter posted in this thread, this scheduling stuff is one of those things that definitely make me lose interest, especially as a visitor.

It's probably less of a problem for locals. What a dream it would be to live locally! Just get a call for a returning provider and be able to see them in 10 minutes.

 

[Jaxan]

What a dream it would be to live locally!

Totally agree! I would be a very happy but poor man… lol

 

[Snuggles]

Guessing your budget is a bit different, also less agencies compared to before and their working hours for sp do not align with your time. Well rated sp are booked very fast.
That or you probably want a wife and settle down. Maybe there can be loving wife experience service. Make you a snack or bring you something to drink and discuss how is work going and look over your budget.... or is that like a mother experience?

 

[Rookie0022]

I recently saw my ATF after a hiatus and damn the interest is back!

 

[envelopes]

I just got to Montreal from Burlington again for a 2pm appointment. I confirmed it this morning. They just cancelled last minute. I'm getting sick of this.

 

[Lexus3]

I just got to Montreal from Burlington again for a 2pm appointment. I confirmed it this morning. They just cancelled last minute. I'm getting sick of this.

WTH, what agency?

 

[Rebaynia]

Maybe there can be loving wife experience service. Make you a snack or bring you something to drink and discuss how is work going and look over your budget.... or is that like a mother experience?

Lol... or just talk with the sp and see if that's the type of person they are. Regulars, especially after years when you get together can have a bit of this feel.
I have 1 person I visit who after, we have coffee time, he gets the cups while I get the sugar, and cream from his fridge, I love the familiarity.

I am a mom at home... Hey sure pay me to be with you, as I am at home. At least in that time I will be getting appreciation for what I am doing and desired. (Kids don't apperciate what you've done for them till they get older, and have to do it for themselves.) Then again it is time paid in a pleasant respectful manner. A visit i would likely enjoy with someone i see regularly.

We don't have traditional relationships, but I tend to have enough of a relationship with those I like to see, that lately I have been refering to them as my little boyfriends who help support me, while my master and I are on a different level. I'm not serving them, as I am the guest in their house, but we talk about their job and mine, we share lives, and we are fond of eachother. I tend to see people I can picture forming bonds with, as it is dificult for me to see people I am uncomfortable around.