Since the dawn of time, Men who got infinite amounts of pussy, have all come to the exact same conclusion -- everything must come to pass. Men who say otherwise never got much pussy. It's the haves vs. have nots. The abundant mindset vs. poverty mentality.
Ever since I was a child, I found cigarette smoking by the Marlboro Man to be the manliest shit known to man. I started smoking 2016 with 1 cigarette a day, then come summer 2022 and I was smoking a pack a day. I loved every second of it. My childhood dream has come true. I am on par with the Marlboro Man, smoking a pack a day, and feeling manlier than ever. And then something happened. I realized I was chained to a sequence of movements that repeated itself 25 times a day. Unfortunately, no 1 habit can sustain itself. Drinking tea/coffee and going to pee joined the fuck fest. This resulted in me taking 70 breaks from my day. I was under a spell. This is true enslavement.
I did not want to be a slave. So, I decided to go cold turkey.
That was 5 months ago. Despite all the benefits of not smoking like better breathing, libido, taste, smell, sleep, digestion, bowl movement, resting heart rate, and overall impulse control, the most important thing is I don't miss it. I'm no longer dependent on it to get through my day. Yes, my life dramatically changed also. It's impossible for it not to.
My life changed not because I stopped smoked smoking, but because I got my time back. And frankly, it's hard to know what to do with so much time, which is why you wanna pick up that cigarette again. Intermittent fasting taught me to control my mouth and stomach, and Hobbying taught me to control my dick and heart. Without their help, I could have never stopped smoking.
All this to say
@OHenry, why the fuck would you ever want to rekindle the magic in "hobby"?! It's like wanting your ex back or reminiscing about the Providers you banged. This lifestyle has shown me unimaginable depths of humanity and what I thought to be reality. But, time to move the fuck on. Why? Because you can do it so much better! Just as you seized the opportunity to fulfill your desires, I'm sure you can find new desires to explore that goes beyond the flesh.
There is no prescription for this. I'm not saying I'll never smoke again. In fact I most definitely will. But, at least now, for the first time in a long time, I have the luxury of pondering about my next move.
It's okay to not know. It's okay to not want.
Let the world come to you!