Sorry for you Leyenda
Too bad, it was an interesting thread but not really well started and I understand why she removed it. However, I will post the answer I was writing while the thread was removed. I hope it is still pertinent and that she will read it.
When someone is being forced to perform a sexual he/she is not consenting to, it's a rape.
Unfortunately, that thread started akwardly because Leyenda described the situation in a very confusing manner about the circumstances. Was she the client or the SP, for example?
I understand that we can attribute it to the fact she was deeply shocked by the incident and wanted to discuss it with someone, hoping that the Merbites would be supporting.
To my understanding, she fully accepted the session as a client but it evolved in a way she was not consenting anymore.
Leyenda, at what point did it change from a situation you agreed (and even sollicited, since you were the client) to a situation you were refusing? Why? Did you mention it clearly to him?
Maybe I'm coming too rational for something that was very emotive for you but it is important for you to understand when and why an acceptable situation became an unacceptable one.
If you want to share your feelings with others, it should help if you could better understand what happened to explain it to others.
Maybe you could restart the thread and be able to better explain yourself after some time. Sorry for you about what happened and I hope you will be able to feel better soon. I also hope that you will have the opprtunity to obtain somewhere else the comprehension you didn't obtain on MERB.