So i sit here writing this in my kitchen, on a stool, sipping a tall glass of ice cold water on this scorching hot day.
Seeing as how i use merb every so often as a sort of personal diary regarding shit i can' t really talk about with many people from my daily grind, i figured i might empty my heart.
I just arrived from a quick encounter with my #2 girl, my 2nd favourite girl to sleep with, my 2nd favourite girl to be with.
I guess i'll cut to the chase, she was high as a fuckin kite!
Looking into the empty distance, making funny facial expressions, mumbling some mumbo jumbo that was incomprehensible etc..
And from my vast knowledge i would say she was on the white stuff either in sniffable, or smokable format.
I know that deep, dark path to hell...hell, i've been there.
As a matter of fact all of my early reviews when i used to do crazy 2-4 hour sessions of non stop sex were fueled by an insatiable lust for speed (to keep me horny as a bunny, not able to cum and energized like a blood thirsty samurai) viagra (to keep it up for hours) and pounding girls for hours...
Those were some awful times, great and memorable, but awful.
And i just recently celebrated my 2nd year of sobriety, and as a gift to myself i decided to start hobbying full time again, but to do it as a sober gentleman.
Back to my 2nd fav,
This girl probably has no idea what she is getting herself into and neither did i when i got into it.
I didn't say anything, besides nobody who is high wants to hear anybody preach, trust me!
And i probably won't say anything either...
Its just i can't help feeling sad for her and thinking what a fckn waste.
She's young, beautiful, has her whole life ahead of her, kind of like i was when i experimented with EVERYTHING..well ok, maybe i wasn't as beautiful
I don't even feel ripped off that i felt like i was fucking a corpse because of all the other great dates i've had with her, i just feel sad..like i've lost someone close, like as if im watching someone helpless being violated and i cant jump in and save them!
Man, what a drag.