I have been contemplating a break from hobbying for a while now. This is an indefinite break. For the most part, I have enjoyed meeting wonderful ladies that I shared a lot more than just sex with. But there are many aspects of hobbying that do not sit well with me, chief among them is that it is a struggle for me to lead a double life.
I have tried hard to "rationalize" my decision to meet women for brief encounters in order to share a good time with but in the end, as much as I lie to myself, I realize that the more I hobby, the more I am avoiding personal issues that need to be dealt with. These issues will not go away and hobbying just "anesthetizes" me from dealing with them.
Life takes us to all sorts of places. You do not know where you'll end up. I know that I do not regret my decision to hobby but I also feel that it was a cop out of sorts for me. Instead of having the courage to deal with personal problems, I tried to avoid them.
I wish all the ladies that I have met or contacted all the best in their lives. You all deserve health and happiness. I also appreciated many exchanges on this board and I wish all of you the very best in your futures.
Before I take this much needed break, however, I will post my final review of a very special lady I met with last night.