Most of you don't know or understand the underlying reason why you have a need to see an SP/MP.. For myself the answer is both simple & sad. My half sister who is 10 years older than me sexually abused me when I was a young boy from the age of 2 years old until I was 10 years old. My half sister being 10 years older started fondling my soldier with her feet & toes when she was just 12 years old & it lasted until she was 20 years old. I think that it’s safe to conclude that most addictions stem from a powerful event in a person’s childhood whether positive or negative but more often than not it is a negative event that sparks the addiction. Addictions can also be labeled as a mental disorder if they are destructive to the individual being afflicted.
Psychology is the science & study of the mind and human behavior. Its immediate goal is to understand behavior and mental processes by researching and establishing both general principles and specific cases. For many the ultimate goal of psychology is to benefit society. Psychologists attempt to understand the role of mental functions in individuals and social behavior while also exploring the physiological and neurobiological processes that underlie certain functions and behaviors. Why do we behave in a certain way? What triggers us to develop abnormal behavioral habits? The most basic theory of Psychology teaches us that 70% to 80% of a human being’s mind, behavioral patterns and personality are formed & crystallized in the first 7 years of our childhood life. Therefore, it can be stated with great conviction that whatever dramatic or influential events which we are exposed to during our early childhood years shall have a profound impact on us later on in our adult life.
I wrote a book about how my half sister's incestuous abuse negatively impacted my life. The book is based on a true story of my life, on how I developed an extreme foot fetish and all the foot fetish events that I have experienced with prostitutes, strippers, massage parlor masseuses & a few escorts. Expanding on the above statement regarding the definition of psychology, let us take a different example than mine. Suppose you would give a young boy alcohol from the ages of 2 years old until 10 years old. Chances are very strong that the young boy will develop into an alcoholic in his adult life..For myself I developed an extreme obsession with women's feet as a result of the interactions I had as a young boy with my half sister. I can tell you that my obsession consumed way too much of my time, hence my life was wasted & derailed on a meaningless sexual addiction to women's feet..
I have indulged in my foot fetish sexual addiction as a single unattached male, never hurting anybody but myself, or more precisely my bank account balance. I confess that paying a sex worker who has no emotional attachment to me is oftentimes a very empty experience emotionally. The fact is the sex worker is basically interested in making money as fast and as easy as possible, and cares very little about you other than making you orgasm as quickly as she possibly can. A smart sex worker who sees the potential of a long term regular client will sometimes go out of her way to please you sexually, by doing the extra things that bring you the greatest amount of pleasure and enjoyment.
Personally I see my foot fetish as a gift but at the same time as a curse. Allow me to elaborate further. In many ways I do see my foot fetish as a gift, as stated above it does bring me a lot of enjoyment and pleasure. Furthermore, I can very safely engage in sexual activities with sex workers and the like by way of receiving a foot job and feel 100% secure that there is absolutely no risk of contracting any type of sexually transmitted disease for either myself or the woman performing a foot job on me. Another added bonus, I don’t need to install a condom on my soldier when receiving a foot job.
I also see my foot fetish as a curse for the following reasons; it is rather difficult for me to maintain a normal relationship with a woman, unless she would be always willing to satisfactorily fulfill my foot fetish needs and desires. Furthermore I have a double edged fetish, not only a foot fetish but a voyeurism fetish as well. How many women would be willing to participate in my voyeurism fetish by performing a foot job on another man before my very eyes, preferably with a total stranger? Then there is my very strict criterion that I look for when in pursuit of beautiful high arched feet attached to a pair of gorgeous legs, which said criterion already eliminates 99% of the female population. That leaves me with only 1% of the female population, and how many of the remaining 1% of women is either married or involved in a serious relationship with someone else? This is why at the age of 57, I am single and have never been married. My foot fetish has also caused me to suffer both monetarily and emotionally. I calculate that I have spent somewhere in the vicinity of between $150,000 and $200,000 (after tax dollars) during my lifetime in paying for prostitutes, strippers, and masseuses to indulge my foot fetish needs, not to mention all the numerous negative experiences I have endured with some of these evil service providers, not to mention almost being arrested by the police for being found inside a massage parlor/bawdy house, not to mention being placed in the back of a police cruiser after being caught inside a motel room with a prostitute, not to mention coming very close to being beaten up by a very large doorman who worked at the strip club “motel st. pierre” up in St. Jerome.
Happiness isn’t found in sex itself, but sex does ultimately play a role in human happiness. Sex is good, but sex with intimacy is even better. A large part of this has to do with the chemical changes that occur in your body when you are touched. Caressing, hugging, stroking, and cuddling all send a chain reaction of chemicals to signal your brain that it is pleasurable.
For anyone interested in reading my book titled "The Impact Of Incest" it is available in e-book format only & can be bought for $9.95 on my website >
www.ImpactOfIncest.com
