I have been wrestling with the illusion question for a while. I must say that I like being special, being a good lover, being a great conversationalist and so forth. Guess I am to some extend as I look at my past life.
But let's face it, I rarely achieve in the 2 or 3 hours that I spend with an SP the same in real life i.e. going from complete strangers to having a great conversation as friends while starting to make love and going to the full act latter on. Now this is part of the illusion the time frame is accelerated.
I do repeat a lot with some SP. Why? I think because with them the first non sexual part of the equation went smoother, was more comfortable and the person in front of me was someone I wanted to know more about. Now why did I want to know more about them, because they sounded more sincere.
Are they really sincere? I don't really want to know, that is were the illusion comes to play. Just like a good magic trick, once you know it, the magic is gone, it is just a trick. There is a big difference to me in knowing it is a trick and knowing the trick.
I do believe they are sincere, I wouldn't go on if I didn't.
Now what about the sexual part of the encounter, the more I connect, the more the sincerity shines through, the better the sex is in a more intimate personal way, it stops being the act of but becomes an enjoyment of life.
If I look at encounter where sex was the main part of the action, Marie-Eve from Devilish comes to mind, I always say to myself boy I would like to repeat with her but I never did so far because every time I wanted more than just unbelievable non stop sex. Call me crazy.