I am starting to get confidence issues because of my age, even if I am much younger than some of you guys. I am thinking of stopping the hobby altogether at times. I am 37 years old.
There was a time when the escorts were about the same age as me, so there was some sort of connection. But now I am older than them. The reason why I am seeing escorts in the first place since the age of 18 is because I can't really get laid otherwise. I guess I must be not "attractive" enough. But if I didn't get laid at 18, I don't see why I would get laid more at 40. In fact I have had less and less dates with ordinary women over the years. I don't match with girls on Tinder that are under 25. They have literally no interest in me. So I pay them to compensate, but even while I am paying them, I have this weird feeling that they are not attracted and are not enjoying it.
I mean, if you are a young man who is popular with ladies and know how to charm them, even when you'll get to 50 or 60, you'll still have attractive qualities. For example, when I was 30 and my dad 55, if we both flirted with a good-looking 30 year old woman, I am convinced she would have choose my dad. He was good at it. Meanwhile, I sucked. And when you are a young man who suck at getting laid, and it goes downhill with age, you can hit a wall at a relatively low age. Attempting to be attractive to women while aging is basically a losing battle.
There are countless girls that I saw, that I thought were incredible experiences, only for them to disappear completely just after I saw them. Did I traumatize them to the point of retiring from the business? I will probably never know but this seems to occur too frequently. I am simply not popular with women, and it seems that even when I pay them, I am not sure they want to meet me. Maybe I should just stop the hobby completely. That's too bad, because I have thousands of dollars in the bank with no purpose.