He provides something that a regular relationship, and the average man just can't provide that I need to be and feel fulfilled.
Wonder what is the "something"
Mind to try to elaborate a lil bit please
LoL. I would think that it is a master/slave relationship would be self explanatory.
He is a good man, dedicated and likes control, while I have looked for a relationship I trusted enough to let him lead instead of leading myself. I am an all or nothing person, and so is he. For my heart to feel secure to submit I need to have trust in him on every level. I get to be 100% dependant on him and not criticized for it, in a world where no one wants to be depended on entirely. I have issues with making decisions, and he enjoys being the one who gets to make every decision. He takes care of me in ways I tend to neglect myself, along with taking on being responsible for my mental health. I can message him 100 times a day about anything that comes to mind, and he encourages it instead of being made to feel excentric for it. Along with it is one of his orders that every negative thought I have, I am to let him know, so he can help me threw it. Which is a very big deal when taking into account I can have severely depressing thoughts at times, and can be and feel overwhemled to just not wanting to deal with life in any sense of it at times. He knows how to bring my spirits back up, and doesn't hold it against me, even when I say things that I expect might infuriate him, he listens to it with complete understanding (unlike any I have ever seen from anyone else in my life) and takes it upon himself to rectify it. He understands and works on healing the person I am from the damage I have endured over my life.
That's all not taking into account the sexual side, which he is as perverse as I am. And he is still trying to allow me the opportunity to come out of my own shell. As my own fantasies in life, was to find the 1 man I would submit to in the way I do with him. That he may guide me threw the extremely kinky world that I have always desired deep down, while keeping myself on the outskirts, because I wanted my someone I trusted to lead me threw it, than to just figure it out on my own. While in my previous relationships I was the one pushing and leading them threw explorations they weren't comfortable with. Going as far as when I quit my public job and suggested to him I might go back into escorting to earn a living and get out of debt, it turned him on. And even if he isn't part of the job I do, he wants to hear all about it, all the time, and wants me to enjoy and have a good time while I am out. Wanting me to re-find the joy I had in sex before the last 2 relationships over the last 5 years before him, had killed something inside of me twords it.
Mind you the kink I crave and enjoy is for him, and crave more the relationship style, tamer side of things with clients as it takes a form of trust that doesn't come easily to me. When others try to enforce submission, well without that trust I tend to fight. So long as the client doesn't push those boundaries, I remain tame, and my inner beast doesn't come out. Though it does seem to make an interesting, non threatening appearance when I meet submissive men. Which has me looking forward to explore when master and I take on subs together as a couple.