Interesting thread so far...
my experience is a bit interesting. I used to see SPs maybe once every month or two. I was in a long term relationship bit it was a bad one. My partner basically stayed with me cause i had very little to no self esteem. She didn't give a shit about my work or me, just being taken care of and being comfortable. Long story short she found out about my habit and flipped her shot which i can understand. When i explained myself that it was cause of poor treatment she obviously did not take that well. That ended the whole relationship which again. I don't fault her. My job is very demanding and hard sometimes and a spoke to the Sps i saw a lot about it. Like i would to a real gf. Thats what i sought mostly, someone i to treat mr how i felt i was missing.
fast forward a bit... i met an Sp in a social setting. She was open about it with me. In return i told her i used to frequent the service every so often. No many details as i had stopped seeing them at that point as i had gone into therapy for my needs.
What happened next was the most interesting part. This girl i was seeing worked along side some of the SPs i saw in the past. No names as i don't want to cause anything. The girl told the other sp about me in passing. Then that sp who i had seeing a year or so prior proceeded to tell her about the extent of what she knew of my habit, including who she knew i had seen and how frequent. Kind of a violation of what i felt was my confidentially but i was told by the girl i was seeing that among their communities they do talk about clients like that. Which again, safety and such makes that ok.
Now that caused a who new set of issues since i felt it was none of this girls business what i did in my past. She felt i wasn't entirely honest.
Then it got really interesting. She told me that all the sps i saw that "liked" me really just saw a sap w
who was an east ATM machine and they didn't really care about me at all. I knew deep down that was the case but part of me thought they cared at least somewhat. Apparently not. Loser, ATM, ect. No privacy to be expected either as they will out me to one another such as what happened. We never recovered from the incident.
I've seen maybe one or two Sps since then but even the illusion that they even like me is ruined. Now im in my 30's, am relatively good looking and make a very decent salary, over 80k a year. Loser? Maybe. But all illusion of the hobby are gone for me after that incedent. The few sps that were always happy to see me apparently saw me as a shitbag atm that was a chattering sap who can't get laid on his own.
Haven't seen any since, no dates with normal women, just working, and living my loser life with a lot more cash, a home, best shape of my life and couldn't care less what i am thought of really. The whole thing seemsnfake when i think about it. Sad kind of, because the few sps i did frequent seemed sincere but after this supposed insider view i don't trust it anymore.
You're talking about me I believe, you changed your Merb handle though?
The SP you were seeing has a history of lying, deceiving, etc etc, hence why she is never in the same place for more than a few months.
But in this particular case, as we all explained earlier, it was by pure accident that we figured out it was you she was seeing. I did not intentionally out you to her, that would have made no sense either since how would I even know you two were seeing each other unless she confided in me?
Either way, no we don't all think you're a sap or easy atm, I told her you were a decent, good guy, but that you get offended easily(I'm not wrong now am I? ;P). I made a mistake discussing these things with her, now knowing her history, and for that I apologize.
On a related note to this thread..
Do some escorts think you're losers? Sure, so do some other humans in other jobs too. There is always going to be people who think less of you in life, but who cares what they think?
There is also plenty of escorts and other people as well who will think the world of you, and that's what's important